The best gift I know to give... Merry Christmas!!!!

This is such an old and popular song.  I want to post it today and invite you to ask the Lord to open your eyes and spirit to it today.  Please take a moment and just read it and see what the Lord reveals to you.  It is powerful and the best gift we can receive.  Would love to hear your comments to which line struck you the most.  Honestly I have sang this song for years but today it not only hit home but brought tears to my eyes.  I will be reading this to my children Christmas morning.   Thank you Lord.
Lord I lift up my friends to you today and ask that you would bring a new revelation to us all on what really took place that beautiful day of Your birth.  Blessings to you all...

O Holy Night! The stars are brightly shining,
It is the night of the dear Saviour's birth.
Long lay the world in sin and error pining.
Till He appeared and the Spirit felt its worth.
A thrill of hope the weary world rejoices,
For yonder breaks a new and glorious morn.
Fall on your knees! Oh, hear the angel voices!
O night divine, the night when Christ was born;
O night, O Holy Night , O night divine!
O night, O Holy Night , O night divine!

Led by the light of faith serenely beaming,
With glowing hearts by His cradle we stand.
O'er the world a star is sweetly gleaming,
Now come the wisemen from out of the Orient land.
The King of kings lay thus lowly manger;
In all our trials born to be our friends.
He knows our need, our weakness is no stranger,
Behold your King! Before him lowly bend!
Behold your King! Before him lowly bend!

Truly He taught us to love one another,
His law is love and His gospel is peace.
Chains he shall break, for the slave is our brother.
And in his name all oppression shall cease.
Sweet hymns of joy in grateful chorus raise we,
With all our hearts we praise His holy name.
Christ is the Lord! Then ever, ever praise we,
His power and glory ever more proclaim!
His power and glory ever more proclaim!

June 2006 from my journal....

June 2006, It has been a little over a month since the death of my son.  I prayed often that the Lord would give me something to hold on to as everything seems so out of control.  And He did on this day and would like to share it with you.  There will be a chapter in my book on all the amazing testimonies and visions the Lord shared with me .  This is worded straight from my journal .

 I laid in a tanning bed last week ( a place where I can be still and quiet my mind )  With the lights warming my body and my mind at peace the Lord shares a vision with me.  I saw Cody rolling in the beautiful green grass than I saw what must be my image of God SO BIG and Cody sitting on His knee.  Cody was in the lap of His Father and peace and joy was all over him.

O Lord In the sacrament of this moment let the wordless sorrow of my silence....  Give voice to my praise of You....

Rebuked by a nine year old.

I had bought Cody a new bible and cover in December of 2006 and knew it was with him the night of the accident.  Wanting that back for many reasons,  I continued to call the police station.  Not only was I in a desperate search for some answers but I wanted to share any of his favorite verses  ( if marked)  at his Celebration of Life. 
Finally the call came, they had found Cody's bible and I could come get it.  I could not believe my eye's when the officer handed me my sons bible covered in Cody's blood and glass chars stinking out of it.  (Really they could not whip it down)
When I returned home I began cleaning the leather cover.  Tears kept running down my face and anger began to rise.  Just then my nine year old son came up to me and said,  " Mom what does it say"  On the cover reads the scripture Jeremiah 29:11 as I read the words,  I know the plans that I have for you declares the Lord.  They are plans for peace and not disaster. Plans to give you a future filled with hope.  My brain was racing as my thought was "well where were You for Cody"  My son looked at me with an inspired smile and said, "WOW that is what the Lord did for Cody mom his future is secure."
OUCH! I thought rebuked by a nine year old.

It's amazing what God can do...

Yesterday would have been Cody's 19th birthday.  It is hard to imagine where he would be or what he would be doing.  I guess that is a good thing.  I was thinking about the day he was born.  I tried to have him at home and we ended up in the emergency room as his cord was wrapped around him and his heart beat would drop to ten beats a second as contractions would come.   They did an emergency c-section.  I almost lost him that day.  In realizing that I am so very greatful and blessed for the 14yrs I had him.  We all had him.  So Lord I do thank you for all of my children as they are truly a gift from You.  I thank you for 14yrs with Cody who brought so much joy to me.   My sorrow runs deep but even in that I thank you that you have and continue to use us to help other people. I thank you that Cody was a child who made a choice at an early age to serve and love You and I know with out a shadow of doubt that he is safe in your arms.  Such peace that gives me.  Thank you God.      

It's amazing what God can do.

Good Morning all.  I just sent e-mails out all over the place in hopes of getting some followers so far I feel like I am talking to myself.  lol
It seems like where to start is the hardest part so far.  I wrote out a few pages yesterday a few times. It is so amazing to me how every detail of such a tragic event is so clear.  The years don't seem to fade the visual at all.  I can barely remember details of last week but the ones surrounding the night Cody died are so etched in my mind.  I know there are many out there who know what I am talking about.  
I received a contract from my Publisher via e-mail and am awaiting the one to sign in the mail mail.  Then sit with my husband and discuss it and sign.
I find this whole adventure bitter sweet.  I guess that would describe most of our lives huh...                       -He has already made a way-  gail

My first day as a blogger...

Today I made the first steps into the blogging world.  I have had a book rising up in me for years now and feel it is time to get started on this new journey.   I talked to a publisher today and he advised me to start blogging and writing my outline and is very interested in my story.  Exciting huh?  I am not even sure how to get started or where to start, so I will just jump in and pray the Lord continues to guide me  My fourteen year old son was killed in an auto wreck.   My family and I  have been on this journey of grief and grace for 4 yrs now.  The Lord put on my heart to write about what we have been through early in my grief process and as I have journal ed, our experiences I believe it is time to start writing about them now.  Please keep checking in as our story begins to unfold and if I can be of any support to any of you out there please feel free to contact me.  Comments welcome.  One thing is for sure the best help is to be a help.  Blessings,  gail